Alone..

..that is a scary word. Dont you agree?

Do you know how lonely I am whenever your not around?
I have no one to talk to
Even when I'm in a room full of people
I am still alone..

Do you know how scary the feeling is?
The feeling of being alone?

You said you'd never leave me alone but alas..
you are spending more & more time with your
friends and
lesser time with us...

I am tired of being alone

How do I make you understand how I feel?

25 Things ...

Don’t think too hard. Just jot down the first thing that comes to your mind.

1. My ex is still: somewhere out there..

2. I am listening to: 9 crimes by damien rice (song?)

3. Maybe I should: go shopping

4. I love: being in love

5. I don’t understand: why life is so complicated

6. I lost: that someone a long time ago...

7. People say: Eyes is the window to your soul (that is so true..)

8. The meaning of my screen name: is me

9. Love is: dangerously beautiful

10. Somewhere, someone is: thinking of me (i hope!)

11. I will always: be full of love

12. Forever seems: like is not coming this year

13. I will never ever want to: be hurt

14. My cellphone: needs a good camera!!!

15. When I wake up in the morning: its a dawn of a new day

16. I get annoyed when: people treat me as if i'm dumb

17. Boys are: cute (but men are yummy!! hahaaa)

18. Girls are: ..whatever

19. Kisses are the best when: its honest

20. Today: will not be the same as yesterday

21. Tomorrow: will be better (perhaps?)

22. I really want: to turn back time

23. I feel: i need more time to myself

24. I answer my phone: with enthusiast

25. I am: JOARY!!!

House of Fire

Where do I begin to tell my story
the chaotic story of
my unprecedented life?

Aahh!! Life... it is so unpredictable!!
you spend your time without the slightest idea that
something that is so unpredictable is about to happen.. and when it does..
it leaves you speechless, dumbfounded and scarred even.

So, how do you handle the aftermath?
Do you carry on and cry 24/7? or
Do you try to find something or someone to blame for all that has happened? or
Do you accept your fate with (false) pride & dignity for everyone to see even though you are breaking into small pieces like a shattered glass.

That was what I did.
I lead everyone around me to believe that me & my family are fine and that we are ok.

Do they know that I am crying inside?
Do they see that the smile and laughter does not reflect in my eyes?

I couldn't show the world how broken I was.
I couldn't even cry or else my girls would see me and they could not shake their nightmares.
I didn't have the heart to tell my husband how scarred I was because he too needed me to be strong for him.

So, what can I really do for myself?
I too needed help..

Untill now, the sight of fire & smoke still scares me..
me and my 4year old child
and I'm sure, my husband too still has nightmares of the incident on the morning of
March 3rd 2009 ...

Do you enjoy Japanese song?

Some of my friends find me a bit weird
because I enjoy Japanese music.
Yes, I don't understand what the song is about but the music they make are
beautiful & catchy.

Especially songs that accompany the Japanese anime.
Be it songs from the opening credit or the ending. I happen to like it very much.

Here is one very good example that I want to share with you.
This is the end song from the anime Bleach.
It is from the group Sunset Swish; My Pace
I have attached here 2 versions..

Version 1 : the Music Video..


Version 2 : taken from the anime Bleach..


Now, my point is.. 1 song but it has 2 versions for you to enjoy.
Version 1.. beautiful song
Version 2.. a very cute & funny song that can be enjoyed by anyone..

Dont you agree?