Bad Karma Good Karma

I have a confession....
NOTHING excites me ANYMORE!!!!!
Nothing!! in its true sense!!
Nothing what so ever.. I find this a very scary predicament,
Dont you?

I am the kind of person who gets excited easily. Every little thing excites me!! for example, going window shopping, it use to excite the hell out of me
but not anymore, why do you think?
Even the Avon pamphlet doesn't excite me!!
I have always gone crazy over Avon pamphlets!!!

I find life very predictable..cause & effects..
If you do A, the effect is B... predictable, yes?
Maybe as you grow older, nothing excites you anymore.
I wonder if thats true?!!

Now I understand why women my age (or there abouts) have affairs with boys
half their age.
They hunger for a little excitement, that's all.
Its just a fling, one time kinda thing/experience..and because of this search for excitement, people tend to say bad things behind you...

Dont get me wrong, I'm not saying all women are sluts. There are many of us out there who are contend with their life. Satisfied with their achievements. For them, I salute you!!.. I envy you, i really do!!

A friend of mine pointed out one issue.. It was on my birthday, she asked, "Have you done/achieved everything that you said you'll do by the age 35 or have you put everything on hold because of your so-called commitment?"

Damn!!! that is a bloody good question!!! and you know what, till today i still couldn't answer her...

All this years, I have always seen myself as a person who has "Done that-Seen that" but after days of pondering and trying find the answer to her question, i actually haven't done much & haven't seen much.

U know what, her question actually "woke" me up!!!
This must be why I'm in this condition...

I don't blame her, she's right.
I wonder if she has achieved anything?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!!

Yes people!!! Today, September the 18th,
35 years ago, I was born..

So, let's celebrate this wonderful and beautiful day
and be merry!! No sad feelings today, ok!!

Looking back the years...

Hola ... i'm back, once again to fill you in with my
musings...

This past few days have been nostalgic for me. I was over at the
clans the other day. There on the table for public viewing was the clans' album
..family album..pictures from the 'old days'.. I must say, i look
pretty good, then!!...what caught my attention was pictures from my early 20s...

Looking back at those pictures, how different i was. The happy moments, the sad incidents, many bad decisions that i made..everything reflected on those pictures only, no one knew except me...

Those eyes, sad sparkling eyes.. if you look carefully it will tell you a million stories, be it sad or happy...

The smile, it can hide a million sadness and pain that the heart endures

but not the eyes!!!

It is true, THE EYES IN THE WINDOW TO YOUR SOUL...

Those were sad years for me. It made me who i am today...
Would i change anything of those years if i were given the chance?
I don't know..

But it is tempting, huh!? to change any particular incident at any point of time in you life...

What would i change? hmmmm????.....

Feeling like Eeyore (one of Pooh Bear's friend..)

It has been awhile, huh??
i'M SORRY...

this past few days i have been "flicking"
one blog after another..trying to find something
interesting to talk about...

yes, i have made a few experimental changes here and there,
i hope you enjoy it...

I will be back to my old self, i hope(!??)