Bad Karma Good Karma

I have a confession....
NOTHING excites me ANYMORE!!!!!
Nothing!! in its true sense!!
Nothing what so ever.. I find this a very scary predicament,
Dont you?

I am the kind of person who gets excited easily. Every little thing excites me!! for example, going window shopping, it use to excite the hell out of me
but not anymore, why do you think?
Even the Avon pamphlet doesn't excite me!!
I have always gone crazy over Avon pamphlets!!!

I find life very predictable..cause & effects..
If you do A, the effect is B... predictable, yes?
Maybe as you grow older, nothing excites you anymore.
I wonder if thats true?!!

Now I understand why women my age (or there abouts) have affairs with boys
half their age.
They hunger for a little excitement, that's all.
Its just a fling, one time kinda thing/experience..and because of this search for excitement, people tend to say bad things behind you...

Dont get me wrong, I'm not saying all women are sluts. There are many of us out there who are contend with their life. Satisfied with their achievements. For them, I salute you!!.. I envy you, i really do!!

A friend of mine pointed out one issue.. It was on my birthday, she asked, "Have you done/achieved everything that you said you'll do by the age 35 or have you put everything on hold because of your so-called commitment?"

Damn!!! that is a bloody good question!!! and you know what, till today i still couldn't answer her...

All this years, I have always seen myself as a person who has "Done that-Seen that" but after days of pondering and trying find the answer to her question, i actually haven't done much & haven't seen much.

U know what, her question actually "woke" me up!!!
This must be why I'm in this condition...

I don't blame her, she's right.
I wonder if she has achieved anything?