February 15, 2009

Honto ka??

May I ask you a personal question?
What would you do if you had an information that could change someone's life, literally?
And that piece of information happened almost 14years ago?

I was asked this very same question by a very close friend recently,
and you know what, I do not know how to answer her...

One thing for sure, she is very upset!!.. and angry..
She kept on saying over and over again that she wished she could changed it all, and how happy she could have been if only she knew it 14years ago...

14years ago, if only he would have told her what she had longed to hear..
today she would have been a happier person.

All she wanted to know was did he loved her as much as she loved him?

She had done so many things to get his attention... countless things.. crazy things
She would have even killed for him...
and when all her efforts was to no avail, She resorted to the lowest plan of action...
her last resort..
because she was not ready to let him go, just yet...
she tried to make him jealous...

For the past 14years, she kept saying to herself He doesn't feel the same as I do, it is time to let him go...
This has been her mantra for the past 14years..
and over the years, she actually believed that it was true

untill recently...
She told me that
14 years ago that day, the day that she tried to make him jealous.. it actually works!!!
He WAS jealous, really upset and frustrated... he too cried that day..

I asked her..
Didnt you see the signs? Signs that he was jealous?
and you know what she said? She said..
I remember feeling a river of sadness flowing through me that day.
and when I looked at him, I thought I saw something in his eyes but, I wasn't sure....and when I looked again, it was gone!! that "something". And at that point, I knew I had lost him...forever

And today, she wants to cry, badly
but the tears are all gone because
she had cried her last cry that day..

the day she thought she had lost her true love... 14 years ago

I need to help my friend...
Tell me what I can say to her... to heal her.

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