February 15, 2009

Honto ka??

May I ask you a personal question?
What would you do if you had an information that could change someone's life, literally?
And that piece of information happened almost 14years ago?

I was asked this very same question by a very close friend recently,
and you know what, I do not know how to answer her...

One thing for sure, she is very upset!!.. and angry..
She kept on saying over and over again that she wished she could changed it all, and how happy she could have been if only she knew it 14years ago...

14years ago, if only he would have told her what she had longed to hear..
today she would have been a happier person.

All she wanted to know was did he loved her as much as she loved him?

She had done so many things to get his attention... countless things.. crazy things
She would have even killed for him...
and when all her efforts was to no avail, She resorted to the lowest plan of action...
her last resort..
because she was not ready to let him go, just yet...
she tried to make him jealous...

For the past 14years, she kept saying to herself He doesn't feel the same as I do, it is time to let him go...
This has been her mantra for the past 14years..
and over the years, she actually believed that it was true

untill recently...
She told me that
14 years ago that day, the day that she tried to make him jealous.. it actually works!!!
He WAS jealous, really upset and frustrated... he too cried that day..

I asked her..
Didnt you see the signs? Signs that he was jealous?
and you know what she said? She said..
I remember feeling a river of sadness flowing through me that day.
and when I looked at him, I thought I saw something in his eyes but, I wasn't sure....and when I looked again, it was gone!! that "something". And at that point, I knew I had lost him...forever

And today, she wants to cry, badly
but the tears are all gone because
she had cried her last cry that day..

the day she thought she had lost her true love... 14 years ago

I need to help my friend...
Tell me what I can say to her... to heal her.

February 12, 2009

My back hurts!!

My back hurts really bad this time around...
Its that time of the month!!..
Bummer!!

I have nothing much to say..
I'm so sorry!! komeneisai..

Did you noticed my new pet fish?

Please feed them, will you?
Thanks!! aren't they just the cutest?!!

February 3, 2009

A Kodak Moment

I would like to share with all of you
photos of me & my family taken recently (Friday, January 31st 2009)..
I do realize that lately, I have not been taken any photos of me or the family.
I wish I knew why the sudden lack of interest in photos.. I used to love taking pictures...

Anyways... here they are..


..This is my family.. myself, Alyaa (3yrs old), Anuar (my husband) and on his lap is Syakira (4yrs old). We were having steamboat for dinner at Johnny's Alamanda. The food was excellent!!...








..though the quality of this picture is not as good, but you can still make out that it is a photo of me & Syakira. People say my daughter & I looks the same, what about you?..






..this is a picture of me and Alyaa. As you've noticed, she's pretending to be sleeping. How do I know?.. Notice the smile on her face?..









..all of this photos are made possible, thanks to the other Joary (the one next to me)..









... and today February 3rd, is Syakira's 4th birthday. We have already ordered a Powerpuff Girls cake for her and I hope that she will have fun eating it as much as we had fun ordering the cake.

But amidst all this happiness, I am very very sad because on Sunday, Syakira fell down & she was badly injured!!
She had bruises and cuts on her face..
Her left eye was badly swollen..

I pray that the cake will cheer her up!!!...
Mama's little baby is 4 today and soon your going out to the Real World.. know this, in that World, you will feel more pain than you felt on Sunday..
I pray that you will be ready for it!!...

February 1, 2009

..on a lighter note

...Interesting things happened to me during this whole week;
both sad & happy. And can you believe it, I am actually feeling happy,
genuinely happy!!.. which is rare for me!!..hehee...

Like for example yesterday, I received an alarming news of my sister. She is about 8weeks pregnant and she's bleeding profusely..praise be to Allah that the fetus is still intact, the doctors could see the little one's heartbeat!! Isn't God great!!

But there's an irony behind this news..
..no one knew that she's pregnant!!! No one! Not even my parents!!
Heheee.. so, the moral of this story is, NEVER KEEP AN INTERESTING & JUICY STORY A SECRET!! It will definitely be out in the open sooner than you think!..

hahaaa!!....

On a lighter note,

I received a text message from an old friend. I've been trying to get hold of this friend for a year now but, to no avail, my calls (& messages) are never returned. Yet, I never gave up because deep down I know, my calls (& messages) will one day be returned. Anyway, in the message it wrote, sorry for not contacting you for so long its just that I'm having some personal problems. I'm sorry..

Yeah right!!!
What is that all about!!??...
You have got to be kidding me!!!??
Are trying to insult my intelligence or something!!???....
I am DEFINITELY striking you out of my Black Book!!!

Question...I will go in-depth on this issues in another entry..
If a friend of yours in trouble and there's nothing you can do but you still want to help, how would you help?...